First step forward
Last night Darrel and I were talking about this new year and how exciting it will be to see what happens. For me this new year represents a fresh start, hope and new prayers. The last few years have been so difficult with us losing our two babies, trying to get pregnant with medications and failing to get pregnant. About two months ago we felt that the Lord was leading us down the path to pursue adoption to begin our family.We are so excited, nervous, anxious, scared but most of all hopeful. We believe that one day soon we will hold our son or daughter in our arms, a moment we’ve been praying for, for so many years now. Since the decision to start our family by adopting I’ve felt this overwhelming sense of peace and excitement, I know the Lord has some big plans in store. Every morning as I drive to work I’ve been praying for the women who is going to hand over her baby to us. I pray for her health and the baby’s health, I pray over her aching heart and the selfless decision she will be making for her baby, I pray that the Lord places these two people in our lives in His perfect time and I pray for patience for Darrel and I as we pray and wait for the Lord’s timing to be done. We are taking the first step forward and although this will no doubt be the easiest step in this process, its a big step forward because we are officially opening up the doors to adopting a beautiful, precious baby. We are trusting in the Lord completely and we are opening up our hearts to the possibility of more heartache but we feel so secure in our decision. Today we filled out a 17 page self declaration contract to get fingerprinted for criminal clearance and have an appointment set for January 9th to get fingerprinted…then the next step after we are cleared will be to set up a home study. We are so blessed to have so many family and friends who love us and who have been praying for us, I know we will be supported completely through this journey. I look forward to the growth that is going to happen in our marriage. Darrel is an amazing husband that I feel so blessed to have alongside me as we start down this new path. So here we go…Lord be our guide.
